I will start like this....
There are two kind of gladness. One which comes when you achieve something that is valuable for you because it is valuable to the world for e.g. my job at Texas Instrument is a kind of gladness which came to me because it gave me something that is more important to the world (it is also important to me because it was my dream company). For the other kind of gladness you don’t have to achieve anything you just have to be happy. Very often you will find this gladness in young kids and I do find it in some people in SPIC. Now because these people live in a real world therefore this feeling is not very prominent in them but whenever I see it in them I myself feel that gladness (not to the degree to which they feel it, if.. there exists any parameter to measure it). Somehow I feel that gladness is infectious. I will tell you the reason why. I feel happy when I see a young kid smiling, or when I see little puppies playing or an artist meditating while his performance. The common thing between all of them is that all of them are glad and I can feel that gladness resonating inside me. The second reason is more out of personal experiences. When I find Justin happy, or for that matter when I ask Akshay about his happiest moments of life or listen to Niharika’s child like enthusiastic talking or Ajit’s overexcited description of a book which he has read recently, I find my self happy (happy is not the word), I find myself GLAD. These “Young lives glad with the gladness which knows nothing of its value to the world” gives me a feeling which i can't express in words(again because i am GLAD). There are no put-ons when they are with me. People say in this world it’s very difficult to find innocence in people, but I am very lucky that I have this group through which I get my share of innocence.
I have rightfully earned my job in Texas by working hard towards it and upperwala has been kind enough to give me the fruits of my labor. But the friendship of these people really has been a gift which I have never asked for, not because I don’t want it but because I wasn’t aware that these kinds of gifts do exist. I am really thankful to the god and to them for everything. In between all the worldly things that I will do in my life, you people will always reminds me that there is goodness in this world in from of humans.
Coming back again to gladness what is gladness for me? For me gladness is something which comes when happiness has to stay for a very long time. You don’t jump here and roll there, you don’t shout, you don’t hug others, you don’t laugh, you don't spend money foolishly. You just sit quietly in a corner and relish its taste. And while you are enjoying all this, a tear may roll down your eye, others may not follow because you are not crying you are just GLAD.
This reminds me of a song from the movie masoom (tujhse naaraz nahin) few lines are as follows
Aaj agar bhar aayi hai boondein baras jaayengi
Kal kya pata inkeliye aankhein taras jaayengi
Jaane kab goom hua kahan khoya
ek aansoo chupake rakha tha
I don’t know when all this will be over……..(I wish it will not get over till eternity but......)
I love you all………..
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In search of me……..
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my love to all as well...
sigh...........
I am just too GLAD after reading this blog. all of us have too many things to share, to write and to talk about. very often we do this also. and its not strange that whenever we listen to other person sharing his feelings, not at a single point of time we find anything new which we have not felt before. it feels like "Oh, he is talking about exactly the same thing which i have felt in past as well. So, listening to each other just adds a new dimension to that. we just get more close to each other and while i am using the term 'us' and 'we' up to an extent i am not referring to SPIC NSIT. the domain of 'we' is really huge and it includes each and every beautiful thing we interact with. and beautiful is something in which WE ARE ABLE TO FIND some element of beauty. its all about our own ability to find and appreciate beauty. there are terms which we use very frequently during our normal thass like 'beauty', 'feel', 'truth', 'innocence' etc etc. but trust me these are most fundamental terms in nature in literal sense. So sometime i am afraid whether what i WAS thinking about is what i AM talking about? have i ever really tried to figure out what i WAS talking about? is there a need to do so or not? so i feel that we should refrain from serious talks very often and these days i deliberately try to do this also. Its not the natural thing to do as i feel, but i dont know why recently i am into too much of it. am i OK? am i fine? Get well soon Ajit! I think i should strictly follow my old policy- "simple thinking and high leaving". [its opposite of Sada jivan, Uchha vichar]. we are not born philosopher(nobody is) and we are not some abnormal creatures with some extraordinary thinking and analyzing capability. we are a normal human being but then still we are SPIC NSIT chapter, WHY? tell me WHY? i dont want to develop faith in SPIC NSIT. i am afraid of being part of something which claims to be an entity, but still i am, its a truth. what am i trying to do? am i trying to narrow down my own comfort zone or i knowingly or unknowingly finding excuses for my own incapabilities. Oh my God, why cant life be again that simple for me what it used to be when i was unaware of difference between being innocent and not being innocent. when i never tried to find out a special space of innocence for me. i just want to find fun in everything, laugh at everything, learn every time and move ahead. yesterday i read justin's blog and told him ki hum sub ka dimag kharab ho gaya hai. life is fun and let it be so. for a moment i would like to tell you that if u are not able to relate my two consecutive sentences then do not break your head over it. thats the real Ajit Lal Das. i am sorry, i am like this and i cant help it. OK so again going little off the track i would like to share a recent incidence. hopefully all of u are aware of what kind of person i am. i take things around me very lightly and i am into habit of making fun of everything which i see in day to day life and every person i meet. i am not a serious kind of person at all. so today during dinner time i met Ankit and simply asked -Hi Ankit, hows life? and in turn he started laughing(may be because of my funny face) so Akshay asked for the reason behind laughing like that and he told -" life is all about finding humor out of everything". and my spontaneous answer to this was -"No, life is all about finding everything out of humor". can we really do this? i want u people to answer this. i will sometime write a blog on whatever i feel, contradicting whatever i wrote above. then i will copy paste these lines there, do not mind. i do not have talent to express myself. i have MTNL not Airtel. or please mere is comment ko padh ke mujhe pitane mat aa jana. i dont have logical explanation for anything i do in life. keep laughing.........i really love u all.
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